~Project · Hikari · the · Hedgehog~

Holy shit. Pokemon is the greatest shit on the planet.
...im crazy XD
no seriously tho, me and jo are listening to the theme song, and i feel like sucha dork but i dont care. hell, ive been craving a documentary DVD set by some crazy british scienist (PLANET EaRTH HELLO.)i want it. fuck, its like 85$ dollars for it tho.
oh well. everything has been going good. i watched pokemon the 8th movie last night and it made me cry like twice. first when lucario died and when ash told pikachu he loved him before he was taken away. it was amazing. but lucario dying was happy casue he got to go back to his master dude who died like, 100's of years before. whats up.
hrm.
im bored.
and hungry.
message to jo: lets drive somewhere. :D
jo: ..ok.

chee.
love james and jo and tim and ash. kthx. ash is sexy when hes all wet btw

~hikari the hedgey

Hey people
yeah, the last two enteries were angry. i dont like anger, or being angry, so i removed them. i just needed to vent my anger and noone was around, so i used my live journal.
i just want to say i shouldent be judged on those entires, becasue this journal of mine is personal, and if you want to read it, you should understand that this is whats going through my head at that moment. i dont hate james' mom, but i know shes ruining her own future with her children. we all know it.
Shes making james hate her, and james admits that he thinks he dosent love his mother anymore. i think that is sad.

alright, now that i have explained myself to those who are so quick to judge who i really am without really knowing me, im ready to talk about what i usually talk about.

i read the book, Fahrenheit 451, and that book is offically God in a can. i love it SOOOO much. and its scary, becasue so much of it is so true today. this book made me see other sides of the world. its amazing.

james drew a picture of Mamoru, as Guy Montag from the book, getting ready to fight the Mechanical Hound (after he burned beatty alive, remember? cha.)
the book is amazing. if you havent read it yet, read it, its short, simple and sweet, took me one day to read it, and i dont read.

lets see... other than that... ive been coloring alot of james' drawings and typing up the script. uhm... and typing up my WWII historical fiction... oh i dunno. lots of stuff. my head is all jumbled, if i have more to say ill edit this. kay!

~Hikari the Hedgehog

hey guys, or whoever the hell reads this, hows life.
j axer still hasent emailed me back, james told me hes probably busy with next month's archie. i hope hes doing next month's, i love his art style to death
me and james are busy with our comic. we finished the pencil of the cover, and we're thinking about making a wikipedia of it. im working on the script, but it tends to kill my wrist, so i need to figure a better way to deal with that. we're def. into this. i even walked all the way to his house to get the cover (and another concept drawing) so i could scan it today. i aint scannin nothin tomarrow. XD but he was okay with it, and it was a nice day, so i was fine. (besides, hes a really sweet kisser when i have to leave the house, hehe)
James gave me some purple and white metallic D&D dice today. i need the players handbook tho. i totally forgot how to play, its been awhile. i would love to play with james, jason, dan and ryan (notice noen of those name are female. im such a loser haha)

oh well, i aint complainin. i have a teaser poster to sketch. and trigometry.. but i cant spell.

hell.
~hikari the hedgehog~

edge, 12 years after the end of the comic. haw

SO. alot has happened in my life, and it all started on jan 21st, it hasent even been a month and its been so terribly eventful!
so i broke up with no talent loser, and got with the most amazing man on the blokc. hes so talented and so creative (and catholic, phew.) and my parents actually like him. he an amazing artist (we shall begin a comic shortly currently titled "Project: Hikari."), he can freaking knit (i do not kid you), his idol is a man named j axer, who does the archies... you know...) hes always fun to be around, has great taste in music, is EXTRMELY handsome, he never yells or gets angry or holds grudges EVER (extremely forgiving, gotta love it), our intrests are practically the same (thank him for getting me back into sonic like he did, OH MY GOD. hopefully i dont crash this computer with sonic media like i did my last one. haha), hes extremely gentle, but protective of me, hes so unique (and a good kisser, hehe), Joanna actually likes him unlike justin and dustin (ew, their names rhyme), is terribly creative (especially when i give him a little boost, he goes nuts.), he likes all my cooking, likes to clean (WHOOT, FTW), is just adorable, remembers pretty much everything i say down to the last detail, is easily cheered up, and he is like my god who knows how to make my creative visions a reality.

okay, so, valentines day was like, amazing. now most people may think this is a little odd, or not very special, but...
on valentines day, he gave me this pink scarf.
most people may think LAME a scarf!
BUT. he remembered somthing that most people wouldent even give a second thought to. a random comment i made one day on the phone with him.. even i had forgotten about it. but i said "you know what i would LOVE to have? a pink scarf. i mean, i know i have a scarf, but its yellow, and it isnt warm, and i hate it. it dosent keep my nose nice and warm.. i wish i had a soft, fluffy pink scarf, in a real pretty pink too." and that was the end of my little rant about a scarf...
well, james took note of this (he seems to take note of EVERYTHING i say.), and one day when he was out buying supplies for our comic project, he bought a bunch of bright pink yarn, knitting supplies and a little knitting book. and for a few weeks, he sat and worked on this pink scarf for me... and the way he made the loops, made it look like it was covered in a million little hearts. so at school, he tells me to shut my eyes, i had no idea what to expect, i thought it would be somnthing cliche like roses or somthing...and he stuffs this folded work of love into my hands and i go nuts. i instantly feel in love with this scarf, not only becasue he made it, but becasue he learned a new skill to make somthing for me, he remmember such a little, insignificant thing i had said and he didnt go out and just buy me the gift the night before like everyone else did. he worked couple weeks on it, and told me it was a gift from the heart, that'll keep me warm. (and its true, its so soft and fluffy and warm and i just cant get it out of my sight! <3!)
not ot mention he said he isnt ashamed becasue he knitted, he says its actually calming. and all the girls i talked to, even preppy girls, said they were jelous, abnd that they wish their boyfriends would do somthing like that. one of them even said "wow, he REALLY loves you alot, dosent he? you're so lucky..."

so, i gotta return the favor, and i know i cant really make anything for him that he probably dosent already have, BUT i found somthing that hes been dying to have. hes been looking for Sonic the hedgehog Archie #1, and i found it, in perfect condition, a 93' print, straight from J axer. im gunna get it for him. so SHHH dont tell him. lets hope everything works out real smooth-like. axer is extremely reasonable. chha *grin*
but i wish james would get the computer back, so we can start roleplaying again. hes more excited than me to get on another one.
geez, i love this guy. :]
FYI, NEW TITLE!
~Hikari the Hedgehog (OH YEA.)

Wow, this journal is old. and it finally crossed my mind, for once in my life, so i've decided to update.

I passed all my classes in school, which is good, but i have a few classes i have to change when i finally get back to school.. tho i thought i would fail french...
so im back into that old anime, Outlaw Star. I got the dvd set the other day which is nice, but i've only gotten to "when the hot ice melts" which i THINK is episode 4 or 5... 4 im sure. gald, tho.. hot ice hilda died... she was a whore and a butch. yuck. XD Harry mcdougall is my favorite character, he maybe gay (more metro, than gay), but geez hes so cool.
im into a new christan religion now-a-days, which is called Novus spiritus. its made me alot happier, and made em love myself and the people around me more. and im not afraid of death anymore... it was founded by a woman named sylvia browne, a woman who has inspired my life, and i watch her every wendsday (sp) and read up on her, as much as a possibly can.. now i dont beleive in psycics, because its easy to pick up on their tricks. he thing is, sylvia hasent used any of those, even once, and shes been tested constantly by skeptics, and proved to them that she is the real deal... that why shes been around doing this stuff for 48 years. if you dont beleive me, watch montel on wensdays... unlike most psycics, she beleives in god, and novus makes me unafraid of life, you know, living fear without fear, without guilt, without sin, without hell and without satin. if god was so loving, why would a hell exsist? it wouldent. ou, theres so much to explain ,so read up on it yourself, if you must.
http://www.sylvia.org/home/about.cfm - sylvia's site
http://www.novus.org/home/index.cfm - Novus

ya gotta love it :]

mn, im out~
~<3 Jen (orihime)

What do you fear?
X = yes
blank = no
/ = kinda or sometimes

[/] the dark
[ ] getting married
[ ] being a parent
[/] giving birth
[ ] being myself in front of others.
[ ] open spaces
[/] closed spaces
[ ] heights
[ ] cats
[ ] dogs
[ /] birds
[x] spiders and/or other insects
[ ] driving or being in cars
[/] flying
[/] being put to sleep (anesthesia)
[ ] flowers or other plants
[ ] being touched
[ ] fire
[ ] water
[x] the ocean
[ ] pools
[/] failure
[ ] success
[/] germs
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[/] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] clowns
[ ] large crowds
[x] demons or evil
[ ] crossing bridges
[x] death
[x] Hell
[ ] Heaven
[x] being robbed
[x] being sexually assaulted
[/] men
[ ] women
[x] having great responsibility
[ ] doctors, including dentists
[x] tornadoes
[ ] hurricanes
[x] being punished
[x] diseases, including cancer and STD's
[x] snakes
[x] sharks
[/] nothing
[ ] dinosaurs
[ ] Friday the 13th
[/] poverty
[/] ghosts
[ ] Halloween
[/] school
[ ] trains or railroads
[ ] fear
[ ] being alone
[ ] losing my friends
[x] being blind
[/] being deaf
[x] growing up
[x] being murdered in my sleep
-----
Choose one:
Doug or Rugrats- rugrats.
Chicken nuggets or Chicken fingers- chicken fingers.
Pirates or Indians- pirates
Pulp OJ or No Pulp OJ- pulp
Drive or Ride Passenger- ride passenger
Regular Hot Dogs or Cheesy Hot Dogs- regular.
Beach or Pool- neither
Renting a movie or Going to the theater- going to the theater.

Have you ever been cool enough to....
Pushed all the buttons on an elevator? yea.... that sucked.
Bake with an easy bake oven? yes
Gone to school when you didn’t remember you had the day off? once.. that was funny.
Ever owned a Spirograph? O_O;

What was the last
Food you ate? cinnamon toast crunch
Thing you bought? a lollipop
Thing someone bought you? Miso Soup
Person that spent the night at your house? Joanna
Song you sang out loud? Take on me- A-Ha

Name 5 songs you have been playing a lot.
1. My hips dont lie- shakira
2. Noone sleep in Tokyo- Initial D
3. Beat of the Rising sun- initial D
4. Blazing beat- initial D
5. Passion/ sanctuary- Utada Hikaru

How old do you wish you were? 18
Where were you when 9/11 happened? in the 5th grade, i think.. i was in gym
What do you do when vending machines steal your money? my eyes widen, i frown, push all the buttons and go "nooo!"
Do you consider yourself kind? i suppose so.
If you had to get a tattoo where would you get it? (NOT LOWER BACK JO, THEN YOU WONT BE ABLE TO HAVE CHIDREN WITHOUT GETTING CUT OPEN. :]) ...the back of my hand
If you could be fluent in any other language, what would it be? Japanese
Do you know your neighbors? yep.
What do you consider a vacation? an Anime Con or a day at the mall
Do you follow your horoscope? all the time, i act like they're true.
Would you move for the person you loved? oh of course
Are you touchy feely? i dont like to admit it, but i am, a whole lot
Dream job? Making Manga
Dream car? that Japanese car, the Skyline
Favorite channel? Comedy Cental, TechTV (im not calling it G4) and cartoon network
Favorite place to go on weekends? in a magical rp world.
Showers or Baths? showers.
Do you paint your nails? almost never
What do you like the most about yourself? im a Total Nerd.
What do you like the least? that im not better artist, and that i havent taken kendo yet
Do you trust people easily? nope
Do you live alone? no.
What are your phobias? no anime, the end of a favorite anime, my favorite character dying
Do you want kids? oh GOD yes.
Do you keep a handwritten journal? i want to start
Where would you rather be right now? at a ramen shop in Tokyo
Who would you like to be more honest with? no clue
Who makes you feel guilty? no clue
Are you a heavy or light sleeper? let's just say even if world war 3 was occuring right outside of my house, i'd still be asleep. (nice jo, keeping that one. XD)
Are you a good dancer? ive got rhythm and i play DDR >.>
Are you paranoid? OH GOD, WHATS GOING ON?! o_o yes. XD
Are you impatient? depends
Would you ever have plastic surgery? (nose jobs end up ugly, jo. XD) no, only lipo if it was necssicary to my health.

It makes the nurse send you home, even if you dont wanna go.
my sewing teacher is going to hate me, im so behind, she works us like little chinese sweatshop ladies tho, pfft. i keep hurting myself sewing yesterday, i have a fever of 100.8°F and she gets mad at me cause i ask her ot feel my forehea,d like im tyring to get out of work. ive been sick like this for three days.
im an utter shinsengumi fangirl. its funny how history is my hated subject and i am in love with a group from a japanese civil war in the 1860's. hah. im SO buying or making the haori, its too cool to pass upp~! and its pretty and peaceful, no matter what kind of violent memories pop up from it. :] my new title?: Shinsengumi Servant girl.
my sinuses are KILLING MEEEEEE
STEVE IS GUNNA GET ME PMKKKK~!! yes. i cannot wait for that. but i wont start watching it till after the roleplay, otherwise i might not enjoy the rp as much. i want it i want it i want it naoooo~! ^^
i dunno what else to say
~Jen-Chan!! :0

my mom was digging around in my room the other day under my nose apparantly (bitch) and she found a hentai picture i drew. XDDDDD it was some old really bad one of some demon... er... never mind.
anyway, so hes like "i was looking for my orange oil and i found your report card and a naughty picture you drew. two anime character whorin around or somthing.." and im like " uhhh, yea, mom, its called branching out... im not gunna stay goodie tooshoes and just learn how to draw people themselves, im going to draw their daily actions and if theres sex involved... then yea. i should learned how to draw two characters doin each other."
i KNOW my little sexual secret is out, i mean, comon. "oh, my daughter is so sweet and innocent and-" PFFT. please. im not THAT dumb, i KNOW they know what i do. im a nerdy teenager. it basically comes with the territory. and yea, im gunna draw "naughty pictures," mrs. jesus freak, if i want. XD
...what? i like hentai. :] XDDDD (tho samurai executioner is a little much... what if she found that?? OH GOD XDDD)
im a pervert.

my keyboard is back up and running, YAY. finally. i can type again. not being able to was pissing me off..
the convention was WONDERFUL. but of course JILL starts dissing it "omfggg its so horriblee" then she starts making fun of people i made friends with and stuff... argh, she makes me mad. shes such a bitch and she thinks shes so wonderful. she said to me the other day " geez, im going to be gone next year, what are you gunna do withput me, its gunna suck, isnt it?"
yeaaaaa...
COMMENT. :D
~Jen-Chan

alrightay people my people!! lets do this thang, shall we? ITS GOING TO BE SATURDAY SOOON!! and you know what that means? ANIME ST. LOUIS! my first convention... and hell, am i excited. im wearing a school girl outfit with marin and it shall be WONDERFUL! :] anthony decided not to go tho, prolly casue he hates me... and i haven seen amber in forever, i have to see if shes still going... but me, marin, and mike are a sure thing. ^^ hehe i have a new anime obsession guy, so my list of very handsome anime men is now up to three... Ukitake, Axel, and now.. Hijikata :} he rocks my socks. hes got some nice eyes, his hair is bitchen, hes tall, and hes totally ruthless in battle... plus i love it when characters basically sit with their yukata's wide open... i dunno, that gets me.. XD

lo, and behold his glory!! ... plus bloody okita there.. okita is cool too XD i want to buy the dvd series now... damn.
in anime club, we're supposed to be watching berserk... whatever that is about... can somebody tell me or show me pictures of cool characters?? hehe ^^ well, either way, everything has bee going great for me... i hope its going good for you too! love you all! ~Jen-chan!

OKAY, PEOPLE, ALL THAT MATTER RIGHT NOW IS KINGDOM HEARTS 2 

its out, and thats really good.
i basically has a freak out last night tho, becasue i got such a huge dosage of KH2 beauty... i ran around the house, screaming, cried becasue i was so happy, also puked becasue i got too excited, basically had seizures, choaked on my own spit... THREE times, and had a whole bunch of trouble breathing... i wore myself out so terribly, that i feell asleep like a little baby kitten and slept like a log the entire night.
but... *spoiler.* ...my Akuseru-kun... MY AXEL!! HE DIES. YES... HE GIVES HIS LIFE FOR THAT LTITLE BASTARD SORA... oh axel.. you're so heroic... i knew you were good all along. and he died, jsut as i pretty much dreamed it... *sigh* thats my axel, he wasent evil after all~ but its too bad he died helping sora... but its os wonderful that he did at the same time! yay~ *cries*
TAKE THAT ALL YOU GUYS WHO DOUBTED MY THEORYS!! and he dosent have a high pitched whiney voice like everyone said he would. OH YES. TAKE THAT AGAIN
YOU GUYS: 0
JEN-CHAN: 2
and of course, im going to be bringin axel back alive in another one of my insanely long and good fanfics, becasue i rock like that... (nobodies has previous bodies and lives before becoming... well... nobodies. so of course, im going to return him. :} hehe, oh god im such a fan girl.)
becasue im a nerd, and i dont care if anyone cares or not, im going to post pictures of this sad event. becasue im a nerd like that
and Axel shall go down in my history as my favorite Video game character of all time. period.

love you akuseru-kun! may you rest in peace in video game character heaven.

~Jen-Chan!

download these songs:
You (agressive mix) by ayumi hamasaki
Sanctuary- by utada hikaru (english KH2 theme song)
passion- by utada hikaru (japanese kh2 themesong)
http://youtube.com/watch?v=MIIl-OF19j8 <--- axel's death

alrightay Nerds, dorks, people who think they are anime characters and school girls! lets play tag, and im it.

im feeling really cheerful today! i have been alot lately, and its been really nice... i wore my school girl outfit today, alot of people asked some funny questions... but my new name is popeye according to mr theabeau and my language arts teacher thought it was adorable. XD everyone kept asking if i had a boat and every once an awhile, in the halls, preps would pass, saying " wow, that outfit is REALLY cutee!" after passing me. XDD

yea... i hated renji and now i love him. RENJI. XDD i woke up one day and said to myself "... o.o; i like renji."
so now my shinigami list would have to be...
Ukitake-kun
Hitsugaya
Momo
Renji
joanna basically want to do renji... but she cant choose between hitsugaya and renji... oh joanna, i feel so badly for you :] XD

yea. ill prolly end up liking byakuya... just watch. XD (ergh, cant stand that guy...)

~Jen-Chan!

thats what i said to my mother this morning in a fight we had after i was talking to my dad... she starts going on on how i need to get my priorites straight, how i should (ONCE AGAIN.) go to college, or im doomed to be nothing but a homeless person on the street starving, or a prostitute or a stripper... assumes i want to mooch off some other man and expect him to take care of me... i cant beleive her sometimes... shes crazy
as you can see, my mood icon cant really tell my current mood all that well, so im using my LJ icon for this. im pretty silent, and even when people speak to me, im not lookin at them or talking to them... now my mom is acting like everything is okay and crap, when im still angry at her...
what is this sour spot all about..? im so un happy... everytime im feeling wonderful, someone or somthing pops up and destroys it.. maybe im being punished by god for somthing i did... everyone around me is so cheerful and optimistic... and then im always sad,crying, or paranoid somthing bad is going to happen. i cant stand this... its really messing me up.. i dont eat, i forget to bathe, im never really smiling, im always getting headaches... ergh, i want ot go back to school. being around my parents this much is only depressing me... i hate my house, i just wanna move away somewhere...
i know i havent been eating enough lately... but when im depressed, i just dont eat.. even if im hungry. my tastes have been changing too.. i want less and less sugar and more starches and fruity things... guh... ive been craving plums, not sugary tea, oranges, plain rice, and carrots like crazy lately... i've also been alot colder... not a moment goes by where im not cold... also, all this stress is causing me to break out like crazy, which is making me feel ugly... ergh.
oh, i dont know what to do. i just wanna go cosplaying to a convention right now and play with my friends in our costumes and act out funny battles... oh, how much fun that would be... then id be SO happy... hmn..

~Jen-Chan

even tho im really hungry, im really not eating... ergh... im so down T.T ukitake is sad with me in my icon..

my lack of a job is really bugging me greatly... its hard to get the food, clothes, patterns and fabric for sewing, and decor that i want.. the thingsi  really get materialistic over is anime or japanese merchandise that i want... and it only tends to get worse... guh. even my manga is on hold because of my lack of supplies and materials... ugh.

joanna, i think we should try ot get the shakira english album tomarrow.. you bought the spanish one, but all her good songs are on the english one... damnit. XD but im also thinking about getting a new bleach volume... if your dad dosent give us enough money, ill just pry money from my mom.. also, i havent been eating much at all lately.. so i suppose that should make it easier on the cash we have...

i have not much else to say, other than i think i might start drawing some fan art of ukitake, and ive been getting bad headaches everyday..
goodbye all~

~Jen-Chan